Chai Bin Diary(Blog)

I start to realise tat actually i’m coward. So coward to do anything
wer ppl aledi done a long time ago. Wat ppl can do, i wun do. Wat ppl
aledi done, i do. Sound so stupid ut tis is me. Now i start to regret.

Regret being coward to say my feeling to u ealier

Regret of leaving the school wer i used to be

Regret say those thing wer no turning back

Regret of being stubborn and mean

Lastly, regret of being so stupid.

All these thing, i can only c yesterday. Wen i sit alone at Starbuck, i
start to c some family enjoyed themselves. Not only this time, last
time i work at Wong Kok also, i c some family so happy enjoy the meal.
Wen i serve them, it’s make me happy 2. I’m kind of simple guy. Can c
some happy faces, i also happy. So, i ask myself, y i cant b like them?
Tis q i hav ask for so many times, but at the end, i knw it’s
impossible. Due to my family problem, my mum hav to work till night.
Only as a teacher hav to work till night. Everytime i ask for money, my
mum juz gv to me. But i knw she get this money by teaching more
tuition. I regret y i din do sth to help my mum. If only i study hard,
there’s lot of thing i can help my mum.

Yesterday, i see some little kids yelling at Starbuck. I juz laugh at
them. Ppl also laugh. Kid is the happiest ppl in the world. Even they
cry or sad, they din put into their heart. They juz let go. Of only i
can b like these kid, mb i can change sth.

Therefore, i’ve been at Starbuck for every single day in 2 weeks. So
hard to blif it, but blif it. All i do is juz sit down wif my laptop do
some surfing and look at ppl who come to Starbuck. Yeah, all the faces
i can c is happy faces. So good to c those faces. Another thing i
regret is being happy all the time.

Well, i think back wen is the happiest time i ever hav. All i can
remember is the time wer v hang out wif my fren. I remember the first
time i go CC wif them, i remember go yumcha wif group of (11?) ppl. I
also remember there’s sometimes i juz sit and listen but can consider
happy 2. Now, ppl start to spread all around the world. Ppl can hang
out is limited. But i do appreciate the time v been 2gether.

Last week, it’s the first time i msn wif my best fren, Zhong Wei tat
long. Well, he the only fren wer i can express all my problem. I also
remember last time, he hav some big problem, i’ll be there to share wif
him. Now, it’s seem is his turn. Sound weird!!!!

It’s been more than 1 year since i decide to change my blog to blogspot. I not saying tat i regret to move, but it’s seem i losing sth important. Not sure how important, juz knw tat it’s important.

I’ll use 2 blog. My other blog is Chai Bin.

Blogspot will be place wer i mention my activities here and friendster blog will be the place for me to express my feeling. Wic is wat do i feel 2day.

Now, i feel tat i quite losing. Losing from everything. Almost everyday tat i do the exact same thing. I mean, it should happen during work, but not study. Everyday woke up damn early, change the clothe, attend classes wic some of them quite boring, go back home have some shower then face my laptop all the time till i sleep. Then, the next day going the same way. Last time i knw i not tat kind of person. Yeah, i admit tat i’ll face my laptop all the time, but most of it is can chat wif my fren. I really do hope to knw wat my fren out there doing. Fine or not, i do k bout them.

I kind of miss my secondary experience. I knw i quite a freak, quite hard talk to gals cuz shy, not quite hang out wif them. I often hang out wif my other fren from other school. But at least, i do k bout all of them. Wen i’m in secondary, i knw wat all my fren there up to. Knw wat they plan to do, knw wat they going to do, almost knw everything. Although some of them i not in, but i quite happy to wat they gonna do. It’s seem tat everything i heard, it make me feel tat i in touch wif all of them.

Not now, after i left (half year of Form 6), i quite hardly heard anything bout them. Mb they 4get who i’m cuz as i aledi say, i seldom hang out wif them. Even wer they all study after Form 6 i hav to knw through friendster or by my other fren. It’s been quite long time they have go to U, but i dunno most my fren wer they go?

At Kuantan, same case here. No much fren, no more ppl wanna talk to me. I hav no idea wat happen to me, dun say i dunno how to socialise… I knw them, they knw me. Juz dunno wat to say. Everyday wen i come back, i on9 and c if there’s somebody who can chat wif me. There is 1 who i always wish to chat wif. After some time, i losing it 2. Now, i really losing anything….

Now, my blog will b transfer to another web n not at friendster anymore.

For those who wish to c my blog, visit lah http://brokenchai.blogspot.com

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9/2/2006 is the date where ‘Student Cultural Exchange Programme’ being held. On that day, a group of student from overseas will come to my IKIP college due to this programme. They r from Korea. Yippe!!!! Korean come to my college. Walao, at night all the student are compulsory to come to the IKIP 5 (mine is IKIP 3) to join this programme. V all wait for the bus at our hostel and the bus late. Nvm, late better then not going. N a funny thing is, there is 5 Negroman in my college, n 3 of them is going for the programme. U know wat they wear on that day, they wear like a CLOWN. HAHAHA. Their hat, clothes even their shoe also same(like…..)

Then, one of them ask my frens how he look like, my frens hold her heart n say OK. Then v all go to the IKIP 5 hall, n all of us had a seat. Then something going wrong, a lecturer picked some of us to sit wif the Korean, GAN NA SAI eh. My frens was being chosen, n i say "Gong Xi Fa Cai" to her. Not long after this, i change place wif her cuz i wanna try to talk to them, u know wat they say. They say, thei didn’t know much in english n ask me not to ask them a lot of Q. So, all the time i sit wif them like a fool  cuz not talking even a word. But wen is time for them to perform, i really impress wif their musical performance. At the end, our "Principal" i think, giv them a gift(u wanna know wat it is) It is IKIP cloth!!!!

Well, that all lah for this unbelievable event and it end aroung 11. Damn it, 2molo i got class leh, but nvm lah. Can talk a word wif them is ok.

Alrighht, now the chinese new year is gone, i hav to back to IKIP again. Tis year chinese year is so much fun as i can reunited with my old frens esp Nishanz. Hi, nishan, long time no c, so leng chai now, hehehe. There is one memory that i will nv 4get. At that time, i was at my fren house, then he go out to listen to her phone, dunno who so important that he talk nearly half an hour, walao. Then i check his wallet u know wat i found. There is 1 grand in his/her wallet. Y he brig tis lot of money, then v try to fool him. V put some of the money in one angpau then pretend that our parents giv him an amgpau(1 angpau contain RM1000.00) but v dun giv him first, then my fren’s mum wanna to giv him the angpau, but v block her n put some more money inside. Wen he open, he so shocked how come thatmuch of money, he try to giv back but v stop him.

Now the real event come out, v giv him another angpau with 1000 inside, he nearly pengsan. But then he realise that it was his money. HAHAHA really funny, but one thing i cannot solve is wer is the angpau come out!!!!!! Anyway, i hav a lot of fun tis year chinese new year although v juz go to 6 houses include mine but is enough to c our old frens. I luv u all freak….

Yeahhhhh, chinese new year is coming. V all can go home n take the most wanted thing chinese wanna take "ANGPAU". Walao, dunno tis year how much did i get for tis year, aiya next week new year then v know lol. Stupid ah i asking this silly Q.

Anyway, tis year mb not the a chinese new year day i wan, cuz after a few days of chinese new year, i hav to come back here(IKIP). HEEEEE, angry ah i, chinese new year only 5 days holidays that include SAT & SUN. Wat nonsense they make, even other school got 1 week holidays, but i need to admit. After new year, i will hav to do a lot of assignment ah, so busy ah.

Anyway, for the chinese, i wish u all a happy chinese new year ‘xin nian kuai le’ (if i din say it wrong) n hav many many many many angpau ah.

In this few day, our college will hav the most terrific disaster, that is lack in water n electricity. Here i can only use the water wen i back from the college that is around 4. After some time, there will no water till the next day 4 o’clock i think.

So, everytime wen hav the water, i will hav a nice bath n REMEMBER to ‘masak air’ ah, no water, can die 1 ah.

That all i can say, later the IKIP will scold me……

Well, last time i say i hav a new day in my life, i wanna take back my word cuz here is not a perfect place, but quite ok lah

1st time came here i know that i will hav a tough life here, but now i can manage here.

IKIP is a place for malay but i dunno y i wanna come here, mb cuz no choice. Well, so here if i wanna b frens mb wif he malay guys only. HAHA, i can stand them that quite amazing, if other ppl, i think they cant stand in 1 day.

The first day i sleep alone cuz i ask for it. I dun wanna sleep wif malay cuz they hav a smell that i cant stand even i slept. But now, i hav frens who same room wif me, but sleep below me(my bed is a double-decker). U know wat that mean, that mean, he always below me. HAHA, juz kidding hah, dun angry ah, AH WONG …..

11/1/2006 is the new day for me. From tis day, i wun study Form 6 anymore cuz is so s**k, u will know wat i mean if u all hav study form 6 b4, but for those dint study form 6, think really carefully.

2day i will study at another place. U ask me y? it is bcuz of KETARI…….Y i so hate KETARI, dun remind me the bad day i hav. Ok, that all for 2day.